Stories of Other Grieving Librarians
It was really hard to find stories about libraries closing that talked to the librarians and also mentioned how the librarians felt. Please share if you know of others. These represent some different types of libraries and although they have differences from my experience and library, we all have the same emotional process about it, it seems. Note to journalists: If your covering library closures, you're bad at your job if you don't at least try to interview the librarians.
- Branch closings hurt, library director says (2001):
"It makes me so emotional. I am a career librarian. It hurts. People say they've cried over this. I've cried, too."
- County to Shut 10 Libraries, Cut Hours at All Branches (1992)
"It's going to be terrible...People from the community, you get to know them. They become your friends."
- Niland library closing is ‘sad situation’ (2010)
"I really love this little place."
- Stanislaus County Library Lays Off 94 Part-Timers (2008)
"I hope the public understands that we are trying to do the best we can."
"I feel sad for the community"
- Searching the MedLib-L listserv archive for subject line "library closing" gives a warning that "Your search produced too many hits and the query was aborted." This is very sad in and of itself, but reading those emails is sadder still. Many of these messages show the pain these librarians felt at the closure of their and their colleagues' libraries. Many of these talented people were laid off in the process. Just a major, major bummer.
Other Articles about the Emotional Effects
There are a lot of articles about the emotional effects of reorganization and layoffs. These also tend not to give perspective from actual people going through the effects, but they offer some interesting advice and insights to why we get sad about it all. Layoff articles about those laid off were harder to find than articles about "survivors" of lay offs and support for management during layoffs.These articles got kind of depressing so I left the list pretty short. There's a lot out there, though. You're probably a librarian, so you know how to find more.
- What to Do and Say After a Tough Reorganization
- The ‘Relevance Paradox’ of School Reorganization
- Coping with Stress: A Survival Guide to Restructuring and Redundancy at Work
- Protecting Employees From Organizational Trauma
All My FeelsI am sad. One of the reasons I took this job was that it was in a branch library. I can't tell you how much I believe in the value of branch libraries. They're really quite something, and Barbara & Michael do a good job summarizing why here (hoping not paywalled!). I'm not sad that I'll be in the main library now. I'm lucky to still have a job - not all librarians who lose their libraries are so lucky. While having a much deserved drink with some understanding work friends recently, one noted how losing our library was also losing our professional identities. I agree. I haven't been here that long (it will be almost 3 years when we leave), but this is my job. I work here. The differences between Us and the Main Library have been clear for as long as this branch has operated, no matter how much we try to be united. Being a separate entity has often had many problems for us with regard to our budget and our professional relationships. But what happens to the Red Headed Step Child when they get invited to stay in the main house with the other kids? It's going to be an adjustment. Our shack out back had it's problems, but it was home. And yes, we're going to insist on continuing to support our users in the main library. That's going to be an adjustment for them and we'll have to deal with some (totally ridiculous) push back. I hoping the staff over there will check their "Why do we need to change things to serve STEM kids?" and "About time you came over here" comments and be a bit more sympathetic. I fear any good things that could happen by incorporating us into the Main Library will be made very difficult without sympathy from the librarians there. [Note: Since first drafting this, we've received many kind words from Main Library staff. I'm very appreciative of this and hope it continues.]
Another thing that makes this sad is certainly the loss of community. The students who used our library are going to lose this community and that is sad. But we -the staff at this library- have been part of the community as well. We're also losing that community. We're losing being able to see our students and our faculty everyday. We have to adjust to a new community in the main library. We'll have to work harder to see faculty because they won't work harder to see us. We likely won't have the same kinds of relationships with the main library student workers. Sadness.
We also have a lot of work to do. We have to map all our things to new locations. We have to map all our services to new units. We have to figure out what our jobs are going to be in the main library. We have to empty our offices (dear, God!) and move all our crap to some random corners of the main library (and listen to people complain about having to empty those random corners for us). We have to figure out what to do with all these business cards. We each have a running list of Things To Do with us at all times. And we still have to do our regular work. We have to meet with students. We have to teach. We have to keep buying books our users don't need. We have to keep developing and growing as professionals. And we have to do all these things while being really sad (and, let's be real, sometimes angry) about losing our home.
A question that has come to my mind during this, and came up a lot more during the Maybe days, is Did we fail? During those Maybe days, it felt like perhaps we could've stayed more relevant and had a greater perceived value if we'd had the financial support to do the things we wanted to do (quick reminder that these opinions are mine and do not necessarily reflect the views of my employer). Today, though, I don't think we failed. Everyone's hands were tied here and many higher ups in the academic college whose space we're occupying have come to us to express their dismay at having to make the decision to close us down. Those comments are so important and we are immensely grateful for them. I know of other libraries where that is not the case. Reflecting on this question is in itself a painful process, though, especially when the blame can't be so easily placed. I feel like a lot of library closures could be avoided if the case being made for the library was better made to the public and The Powers That Be. I think Libraryland at large is terrible at explaining our value, especially when we're serving populations that don't do historical research or use Books. This is where Main Libraries could do better (and where LIS education could do better). It's been my experience that most Main Libraries (and LIS education) are particularly bad at advocating for those groups. I can feel myself going into my tangent about this, and that will take away from the point of this post so I'm stopping there. One thing we hope The Powers That Be take away from our closure is how important spaces like ours are to students. I think we've done a really good job of making that clear and hopefully all the new buildings going up around here will take that into consideration. They won't, but hopefully at least one person will raise the issue at meetings about them.
I was going to document some of the closing activities we'll be doing and share that documentation to personally pay some tribute to this place and give us a proper send off. But now we're on a crazy short time table and we can't do any of the things we wanted to do. If your library is closing (so sorry!) and you want some ideas for things to do for patrons, I'm happy to share what we were going to do.